Patricia's life showed the unbelievable power that God has … the power to wash away the bitterness that resulted from sexual abuse by her father.
Hi, my name is Patricia. When I was about eight years old, my father sexually abused me. This abuse went on until I was fifteen. At that time I became pregnant to my father. I adopted the baby out. I went home where the abuse continued. I could not handle it any more so I left home and went to Sydney to live on my own. I kept it a secret until I was about eighteen.
One morning I woke up at a hostel where I was living and I knew that the stuff that my dad did to me was wrong. One day when I was working I heard someone on the radio talking about sexual abuse. I took down the phone number, called them and I arranged to meet a councillor. She was very helpful and I continued to phone her every day. I was a total mess. She would always say; "You will get through this" and I would reply "No, I wont." I just wanted to die … I was sick of living.
I tried to commit suicide many times. In the end I gave my life to the Lord, which is the best thing I ever did. I found that forgiveness was a really big issue in my life. Someone had to explain to me what forgiveness was because I thought that if I forgave my father it made what he did to me all right. It took a long time for me to forgive. It's not easy to forgive … I thought, "Why should I forgive?" But I did forgive. When I did forgave him, the bitterness that I had been carrying around for years … the bitterness that was absolutely ruining my life, left me and a real freedom came to me.
If you would like someone to talk to, email me on changinglives74@yahoo.com.au addressing your email to Patricia.
Only the Lord can get you through.
He loves us every much.
May the Lord bless you …
I pray my life story will help someone in their life,
Patricia
