For Michelle, witchcraft only meant darkness, pain, torment and fear. After she starting going to church with her grandma, Michelle found freedom and a new life in Jesus Christ.
A bitter root of unforgiveness
My name is Michelle and I was born on December 7, 1981. My grandma is a woman of God. If it wasn't for her I never would have heard anything about God. As a little child, I went to church with my grandma. As I child and in my early teens I gave my life to God, but I got my feelings hurt by the Pastor. I won't go into that story as it was to long ago. Anyway it made my dad mad so we left that church. We found another church but slowly I began to fall away from God. I would go to church only when I felt like it. I wasn't really dedicated. I had the hurt from the other church and I believe it started a root of unforgiveness in me.
Feeling like death … dead on the inside
During High School in around eleventh grade I started to hang out with the grunge crowd. Outcasts you might call them. They were all into that witchcraft and I became curious and I started messing with it. I was going out with a guy who was a witch and he gave me a book that lured me into witchcraft. I began to read books about witchcraft, the occult, casting spells, tarot cards and meditation. I had an altar with candles on it in my bedroom. I practiced witchcraft for about two years or so. All I can say it felt like death … like you're dead inside. I felt a dark presence inside me. This dark presence was in my bedroom … it was all around me. I heard voices talking to me when I was alone.
Slipping more into the darkness
One time during second period a guy who was one of my friends, asked me to trade souls with him. He called it 'Soul Trading'. He asked me to look into his eyes but I didn't want to. I said "no" and closed my eyes. But for some reason I looked into his eyes and felt something leave my body and something enter. When he did this, I felt different inside and then he switched them back. Sometimes he would read my mind and knew what I was thinking and I didn't like that. I knew another guy who was a witch. We would read each other's minds and yes it can happen! I would think of a question and he would answer me out loud without me saying anything to him.
Attracted towards black
I had rock posters on my walls. I listened to Gothic, heavy metal music, and everyday I dressed in black clothes. I also wore black eyeliner and dark makeup. I also got into drugs, smoking, drinking and sex. All those things are attempts to try to fill the void inside, but they don't, as you just keep wanting more. I lived most of my life in darkness. I had no peace, love, joy or happiness.
Witchcraft meant pain, sadness, torment and fear
The years, I practiced witchcraft were the most dark and painful years of my life. I got very depressed … I stayed in my bedroom all the time. I was depressed over a guy who was a witch. That relationship ended in June 2000. I eventually started cutting my self, mostly on my leg. At the time, the cutting seemed to relieve the pain I felt inside but this was just an allusion … the emptiness was still inside me … eating me away. I had thoughts of suicide and I once tried to kill myself by taking a bunch of pills.
After I graduated High School and none of my (so-called) friends contacted me … they were just gone. I did try to call a few people but they never seemed to have the time or maybe they just didn't want to hang out with me. Guess you eventually find out who your true friends are.
Getting tired of all the pain
Finally got tired of all the pain, so I started praying for God to make a way for me to go to church. I prayed and cried about that for three months. During that time my parents had stopped going to church. God made a way for me to ride with my grandma and start going to church with her. The Pastor of the church gave her a lift and agreed to pick me up as well, since we lived near each other. I praise God for that! Jesus Christ slowly led me back to Himself. I was so hungry for God and to get him back in my life, I went to church and soaked up the word of God. I had problems with rebellion sometimes I didn't easily follow some of the things God said in His Word. God continued to move in my life and slowly I grew closer to Him. God was really working on me. Two ladies from the church mentored me and taught me God's Word on Wednesday nights. I thank God for them everyday.
I needed to renounce my witchcraft
Over a year or two I started to struggle with fear and I was being tormented at night. I would wrestle, toss and turn in the bed trying to go to sleep. There was an invisible presence I was scared of. I didn't know how to get rid of it. This spirit would follow me through my house. At this stage, I had not renounced witchcraft. I didn't know I was supposed to as no one ever told me to do this. I thought once I was a Christian everything would be OK. But this was not so in my case. I was severely attacked and I didn't sleep for two nights straight. The next night was Wednesday and in church I went froward for prayer.
Renouncing witchcraft with the help of others
The ladies of the church got around me and they started praying. One of the ladies who had had no prior knowledge of my situation asked me if I had been involved into witchcraft. So I knew that it was the Holy Spirit who was working. I prayed and renounced witchcraft and everything evil practice I had been involved in. I received deliverance. It is such a wonderful feeling of freedom when you have peace in your mind and you are not being tormented. After those demons left I was filled with the Holy Ghost. I felt Jesus not only in my heart but also from the top of my head to the soles of my feet. Praise God! He filled me completely with His light. Christians have authority in the name of Jesus to rebuke Satan and spirits of darkness. They must flee at the name of Jesus.
Heaven can be your destination
Jesus filled me with peace, love, joy and happiness. I have eternal life and I can walk in freedom and with the assurance that when Jesus returns for His church I will get to spend eternity with Him in Heaven. Heaven will be a place where there is no pain, no tears and no more of the troubles that this life on earth can bring us all. May Jesus Christ's love touch your heart and guide you throughout your life.
More battles to win
Around September of 2005, I started having problems with anxiety and I was struggling spiritually. I was battling with thoughts in my mind. I felt God touch me and delivered me out of the anxiety but I doubted Him. He touched me twice and both times I doubted. On a third occasion, I tried to reach out to God but I gave up and all the anxiety flooded in. I still kept on going to church, praying and reading my bible but for some reason I couldn't get a breakthrough until recently. It was very hard but now I finally can see God was working in the midst of it all.
God providing encouragement through His Word
I continued to go forward for prayer and the Holy Spirit really touched me. As I read Genesis 22 I saw how God was really My Provider. God provided a ram for Abraham to sacrifice when Abraham in obedience to God was about to sacrifice his own son. After realising the faith that Abraham must have had joy came over me … hallelujah … thank you Jesus! I could feel God's presence so strong. I still have problems with the anxiety, not so much chest pain just the itching caused by my nerves, but I know God has a plan.
November 2006
God has been really been moving in my life. I am overcoming the anxiety. If we are children of God and He has made us whole, then there is no room for worry, fear or anxiety. Those things are not of God. God is restoring me and healing me, helping me daily with the Holy Spirit's help. Thank God for His Holy Spirit!
All thanks, glory and honor to Jesus Christ for my salvation and for deliverance from the sin of witchcraft! I hope my experiences have touched your heart. I pray that if you are trapped in darkness and don't know Jesus that I have helped you to see that you need Jesus Christ in order to be set free.
Jesus is the way, the truth and the life!
Michelle
The glorious time to come
"Then I saw a new heaven and a new earth, for the first heaven and the first earth had passed away, and there was no longer any sea.
I saw the Holy City, the new Jerusalem, coming down out of heaven from God, prepared as a bride beautifully dressed for her husband.
And I heard a loud voice from the throne saying, "Now the dwelling of God is with men, and he will live with them. They will be his people, and God himself will be with them and be their God.
He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away."
He who was seated on the throne said, "I am making everything new!" Then he said, "Write this down, for these words are trustworthy and true."
He said to me: "It is done. I am the Alpha and the Omega, the Beginning and the End. To him who is thirsty I will give to drink without cost from the spring of the water of life.
He who overcomes will inherit all this, and I will be his God and he will be my son.
But the cowardly, the unbelieving, the vile, the murderers, the sexually immoral, those who practice magic arts, the idolaters and all liars-their place will be in the fiery lake of burning sulfur. This is the second death"
(Revelation 21:1-8).
My child, your healing is so near.
Just reach out and receive it.
That is all you have to do, just reach out to me.
I will heal thee.
I bore those stripes just for you.
I love you my child and I want to heal you.
I heal all sickness and disease ..
It doesn't matter what your infirmity maybe.
It could be spiritual or physical, whatever you need.
I have it right here for you to receive.
There is no cost; the gift of healing is free.
Come unto me, Jesus ...
All you gotta do is have faith and believe.
